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[Sunday
1:26am February 12th] |
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It's been a while.
New semester. New classes. I love Law & Government and Theater Arts. Study hall sucks, because of the retards who made the bomb threat. Software Applications is alright. My best gwam is 146, which is crazzzy!
Now for the bad news. My Uncle Mike died of a heart attack. This is so weird. I cried a lot about it, which I wasn't really expecting. I wasn't even expecting him to die. No one was. I feel so bad for Samantha. I can't imagine being in her position. I also feel bad for my mom and aunts. My mom was so upset. God, I hate seeing her like this. I just wish she could catch a break. I wish we all could. My family has to have the worst luck ever.
I dunno. I'm just kinda shocked.
Don't take advantage of life. It can end before you know it.
RIP Uncle Mike <3
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[Sunday
1:16pm January 22nd] |
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Nobody Move, Nobody Get Hurt - We Are Scientists |
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I don't think I ever mentioned how I did on my Powell papers. Hmm.. well I got an A on the one about the Mafia and John Gotti. I also got an A on the one about Queen Elizabeth. I'm soooo proud of myself!!
The new semester is starting on Thursday. I can't wait.
I'm starting to give up on people. But whatever. It'll be okay.
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| These are my friends, this is how they were made forever... |
[Sunday
7:10pm January 8th] |
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Yellow Cat Slash Red Cat - Say Anything |
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I've been pretty busy lately. I have another Powell paper to write about Queen Elizabeth, read The Catcher in the Rye, work on another debate about the insanity defense, the stats project, and applying to college. Then I have just regular work to do. Thank God for Revta's class. We never have anything to do in there.
Only 4 months and 16 days until Mer Mer comes home. Who's excited for that?!
I went here and there in the past week or so. I can't remember anything though. Ugh.
I got some hair dye today. I doubt I'll dye it tonight though cause my mom won't be home until late.
Speaking of my mom, she quit smoking today. If it doesn't work this time, I'll rip her lungs out myself. I hope she sticks it out though. I really don't want her to die. There's only so many times you can cheat death and she's already done it a few times.
Only like 2 weeks give or take till the end of the 1st semester. Only 1 more till I'm out of this place!!
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[Wednesday
9:18pm December 28th] |
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Merry Belated Christmas. Hope it was wonderful!! I got some pretty cool stuff.
- On Thursday I went to Molly's for her Christmas party.
- On Friday I did some top secret stuff, went to the basketball game, and Nay Aug to see the Christmas lights with some cool kids.
- On Saturday I went to Dunmore for Christmas eve.
- On Sunday everyone came up here for Christmas.
- On Monday I went to Dunmore to see Joanne and Lola. Tyler was too tired/cranky. Sam was there for a little bit and we finally made up after months of not talking to each other. Then I went to Megan's house for a bit. Shawna and I went to her boyfriend's uncle's house. Sooo much fun!!
- On Tuesday I stayed home and relaxed
- Today I went to see The Family Stone and out to lunch with my lovely friends. GO SEE THE FAMILY STONE!! It's really good/funny/sad. You'll love it. Then I went out to eat and shopping with Elyse and my mom.
Now I'm here.
I love my family and friends soo much.
5 months and 3 days until Mer Mer comes home!!
PS - I really hate when people think they're better than me, even though they're not. And I really really hate when someone I was friends with for years and years doesn't care about me anymore. Yeah. Whatever. Your loss.
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| I'm sick of seeing you cry... |
[Sunday
10:38pm December 18th] |
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Tech Romance - Her Space Holiday |
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I was up until 1:30 decorating the tree last night. I did it all by myself and felt so alone. Eh, at least the tree looks really nice. I watched Christmas in Boston at the same time and it was sooo cute. I finished decorating this morning. Well somewhat finished. I kinda don't wanna wrap presents, because I suck at it..but it's so much fun.
I went to Jimmy's surprise party today. It was fun and interesting. That's all I'll say. But I love my friends a whole lot ♥
I do not want to go to school tomorrow. I like Jacqui's away message. "Good news...only 177 days till graduation & 245 more days till college!" That's more like EXCELLENT news!! I cannot wait until June 9th. Ahh and then Senior Week. I'm super excited. It's going by soo fast!! August felt like it was yesterday. It's already December 18th!! Where did the time go? This semester flew by. Next semester is even easier. My only real class is Law and Government. I don't think that even counts. Ahh awesome!!
Meridyth, I hope you see this. I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH!! I wish you were home right now. You moved away months ago and it still doesn't feel real. I always think I hear/see you during school and I'm like "OH! Meridyth!" but it's not you. Duh. I just miss you a lot. I wish you were only 10 minutes away. I went to your house a couple weeks ago and it was so weird. I cried. It wasn't your car in the driveway and you weren't up in your room. Ahh. I want my Mer Mer home right now.
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[Saturday
9:39pm December 17th] |
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Not much has been going on.
I went shopping today and got most of my Christmas shopping done. I also got a shirt that says Italia and jeans from AE. Mmm and I got a chai from Borders. It's so good <3 I want another one.
I almost got killed a few times today. I'm not the best driver in the world.
My parents put up the tree tonight so I have to decorate it all by myself. That depresses me.
I can't wait for Christmas break. I hate school.
I'm so bored. Ugh. I need a new life or something. It's the same thing every week. I wish things would start to work out for me. Blah.
I hate annoying people SOOOOOO much.
The end.
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[Sunday
7:20pm December 11th] |
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I got an acceptance letter from Kutztown today. Whoo hoo. So far I've been accepted to both schools I applied to. Now I have to apply to a few more places. I think I'm gonna apply out of state. I don't know where yet, but I'll figure something out.
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| Oh it's what you do to me... |
[Friday
2:03pm December 9th] |
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Hey There Delilah - Plain White T's |
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Last weekend was pretty good ♥
I didn't go to Arcadia cause it was snowing when we were supposed to be driving. My mom got her car back like 2 days before and she didn't want to get into another accident.
So I'm finished with my research paper. I love the Mafia. Except for the murders, drugs, and gambling. But it's pretty interesting.
Trail is pretty stupid. SEND MY TRANSCRIPTS OUT YOU IDIOTS!!! I want to get into more than one school. Rahhh!! I still have to apply to Arcadia, Cabrini, and Millersville.
It snowed about 6 inches or so today!! I loathe the snow, but I love snow days. I got about 14 hours of sleep, instead of my normal 6-7.
I went to the girls' basketball game last night. I'm probably going to the boys' game tonight.
LJ is boring me.
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| Don't do that clock. I don't like when you play stupid clock games! |
[Thursday
7:23pm December 1st] |
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Bonus Track! - Dane Cook |
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I've been feeling pretty good lately. Lunch has been a lot of fun. "Wendy's" drive-thru, "mine or his?", "he's better off putting into a wall!!" I love my friends a lot.
I love Dane Cook soooooooo much.
"AHHH! THAT'S A DELICIOUS PEAR!!"
I hate writing college essays. I hate applying, but I love getting acceptance letters. Well, I've only gotten one so far..but still.
I'm gone to Arcadia on Sunday. Yup. That's cool.
I am doing a horrible job at updating, since I'm listening to Dane Cook at the same time.
Maybe I'll try again later.
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| BLAH!! |
[Friday
1:16am November 25th] |
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Today was Thanksgiving. Mmm I love turkey sooo much!! And I'm pretty sure I have the coolest/wackiest family ever.
Even though Rachael left me the best comment ever in my last update, I'm still in that mood where I hate everything. It's so hard to describe. I just feel like nothing ever works out for me. I can never please anyone, since people are constantly yelling at me. It's like no matter how hard I try, it's never enough. And it hurts when you're there for someone, but they're not there for you. I feel like I can't tell my problems to anyone. It literally hurts. I hate how things change. I just want to feel wanted. I want this year to be over soo bad. I want to stop crying over everything. All in all, I hate myself.
I'm gonna finish Elf then go to sleep.
Have a nice day.
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[Friday
11:19pm November 18th] |
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I've been so busy this week. Lots of homework and stuff. It's getting kinda annoying.
Anywho. I was sick on Wednesday and didn't go to school. So yesterday I went to see Harry Potter at midnight with Molly, Melissa, Courtney, and Leah. It was such a good night. I love those girls a bunch. And the movie was soooo good. Hmm. So I got home around 3:45 in the morning. Yeah I was pretty dead. My dad went to work around 4:30 I guess so he called at 5 and 6, but I fell asleep both times. My mom let me stay home, thank God. I literally slept through school. Elyse called at 2:30 because I wasn't there to pick her up. I dunno. I was tired.
So I just found out that the boys lost the football game. I really wish that I went tonight, but I couldn't since I didn't go to school. Then again, I didn't have a ride or anything so I probably wouldn't have made it down to Shamokin anyway. Oh well.
I'm really sick of this year. I can't wait for it to be over. I can't wait to get an acceptance letter from a school. Any school as long as it's far far far away from here. I hate this place. Everyone says you miss it once you leave, but I hate it and I want to get out so bad. I don't hate everyone here, I actually love most of the people, but I HATE the scumbags. I don't care if you don't like me. It's not my fault that I'm better than you, but you don't have to talk about me when I didn't even do anything wrong.
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[Friday
5:20pm November 11th] |
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My car broke down at Target on Saturday. I hate it so much. I just got it back 5 minutes ago. Still sucks. Still extremely loud. Still can't hear the radio over the noise. Still freezing cold. I wish it would just diiiiiiiiiiiiiiie!!! My dad said that I'm not getting a new car. My mom said that I am. Can't they just making up their fucking minds?!? If I have to get a job - I BETTER get a new car. I guess they're getting sick of spoiling me.
Molly brought me to school in the morning and Meg brought me one day. Shawna/Blase/Mel brought me home different days. They're all super.
I hate school. I hate people. I hate scumbags.
Wow. Bad mood.
A bunch of us went to Pizza Hut for Elena's birthday yesterday. It was a lot of fun and I love those kids.
I'm writing my research paper on John Gotti and the Mafia. Oooh I can't wait...seriously.
I'm hanging out with Meg and Shawna tonight I believe. And Bridgit? No idea who she is, but we'll see.
7 more months <33333
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| Show me how you do it and I promise you, promise that I'll run away with you... |
[Tuesday
6:17pm November 8th] |
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I went to NYC like two weeks ago to see The Producers. We went to the Rockaway Mall first and I mostly hung out with Megan. We some some awesome jewelry and food. Yup yup. We went to Sephora when we got to New York and then the play. It was sooooo funny!! I loved it.
Umm. I went to the Mid Valley game on Friday. That was fun.
I'm forgetting so much.
I applied to Widener and asked Mr. Sohns to write a letter for me. Ahh. I love him soo much!! He's one of the only things I'll miss about Trail.
I got a 105 on my science test and it was the top score. Whoop.
I don't know what else is going on. I hate this place and can't wait to get out.
I miss so many people.
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| Don't worry!! I'm still alive. |
[Tuesday
9:27pm November 1st] |
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Whoaaaaa. I haven't update in forever. This might be a record!!
So. For my birthday (which was all the way back in OCTOBER!!) I went out to dinner with my parents and got a really awesome camera. I ♥ it a lot!! The next day was Melissa Marsili's birthday so the girls were gonna go out to dinner, but that didn't work out. So we all went to the game that night and nearly everyone in the world went to Damon's afterwards. They didn't sing Happy Birthday to me and Melissa..I was pissed. So on Saturday a bunch of us went to Sheetz, played manhunt in the mall, and went bowling. Whoo. I got three strikes, I believe, but who knows since it was nearly 2 weeks ago.
I went to visit Widener over the weekend and I loved it sooo much. I really hope I get accepted, but I don't think I have a problem. I probably just jinxed myself. Ahh. Anywho. After that my parents and I went to see Aubrey and Jon and taste test the food for the wedding. I actually liked some of it, which was a surprise. We also met Jon's parents for the first time. How sad is that? Aubrey and Jon dated for about 5 years and we just met his parents. Haha.
Yesterday was Halloween. I went to Jacqui's party, but we didn't make any cupcakes this year. Hehehe ;) Oh good times. Yeah. I dressed up as a girl from the 80s. I literally threw my costume together after school. I kinda looked like I was crazy. Eh, whatev.
Melissa and I had our debate yesterday and today. We crushed the other team. It was fun. :-D
So I'm really stressed out about colleges. Where the hell am I going? I don't even know how to apply. Well..kinda. I started my application for Widener, but I can't figure it out. Ahh. I wanna go there soooooo bad!!! I really hope Mrs. G. can help me out tomorrow. I dunno. I'll figure something out.
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[Thursday
4:07pm October 20th] |
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I'm 18 years old. My friends and family are the best. It's been a good birthday so far. ♥
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| Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones... |
[Wednesday
4:26pm October 19th] |
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Fix You - Coldplay |
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Today is the last day I'll be 17 and/or a minor. This is so weird. I'm almost an adult. Ahh I love birthdays.
My mom just got my proofs for my seniors pictures. I really hope they turn out nice. Yup.
I went to the college fair at Marywood yesterday. I talked to Widener's admissions directer. He was so nice and really hot. I'd probably go to Widener just to see him whenever I wanted. I still don't know where I'm applying though. I was so set on going to Arcadia for the past year or so and within the past week I totally changed my mind. So basically I have one school to apply to. I think I'll apply to Kutztown for a safety school. I'm pretty sure I can get into Widener though. At least I hope so.
I absolutely hate being sick. My mom said I could stay home today, but I didn't because I wanted to finish my Stats project. Hmm..we didn't even work on the project. I was so mad. AND we don't even have any medicine for me to take.
So tomorrow I'm going out to dinner with my parents. Then we're going shopping for my birthday present :-D A new digital camera. I'll probably get other stuff too, but I realllllllly want a new camera. On Friday I'm going to Pizza Hut with the girls for mine and Melissa's birthday then the football game. Then on Saturday a bunch of us are going on a haunted hayrides. Eee. I'm sure I'll be freaking out the entire time.
Birthday weeks are so much fun!!
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| Don't be worried, I'm not with him... |
[Monday
9:09pm October 17th] |
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Boyfriend - Ashlee Simpson |
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Ehh. Life is okay now. Whatever.
BUT IT'S MY BIRTHDAY WEEK!! And it's not just any birthday week. It's my 18th birthday week. Whoo hoo. I don't know why I'm so excited. There's not much you can do as an 18 year old. I can start smoking. Yeah right. Well I am gonna play powerball on my birthday. It would be so awesome if I actually won. I didn't register to vote, but it doesn't even matter. I don't even know who the mayor of Nicholson is. Of course I would vote for the Democrat, cause you're not mature enough if you vote for a Republican. Hahaha I love Megs. I'm glad she's home.
Sooo. My birthday is this Thursday and Melissa's is on Friday so we're all going out to eat then to the game. Then we're going on some haunted hayride on Saturday. Ahh. I love birthday weeks soo much!!
I'm going to visit Widener on the 29th since we have to go to Philly to plan Aubrey's wedding. I think that's my number one now. I don't know if I wanna go to Arcadia anymore. This is so hard. But I can probably go to Widener for free since Momma Murr works at Keystone. Whoo hoo. This whole process is very stressful, but it's kinda fun.
:-D
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[Wednesday
3:57pm October 12th] |
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I hate this so much. I can't remember back to when I haven't cried. That's ridiculous. Ahh. I don't know what to do with myself.
I just need someone to talk to. I've never felt so alone in my entire life. It sucks because this is supposed to be the best year of my life and so far it's definitely been the worst.
I seriously hate my life. I know it can be sooooo much worse, but it can also be better. And I want things to be get better. I just want something to work out for me once. I hate being upset constantly and feeling like no one is there for me.
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[Tuesday
2:52pm October 11th] |
I stayed home today. 5 day weekends are cool.
9 months until graduation. 9 days until I'm 18 years old.
Thank God it's all going by fast. Whatever.
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